Sometimes I wake up hating the concept
of money. Or at least not having any. I've never been truly spoiled,
though I guess being spoiled is always relative. All I know is in my
current situation, I am caught between a rock and a very hard place.
I have spring break plans lined up that I really want to go to, but
vacation is a luxury. What is directly in front of me is a hefty
helping of obligations that are draining me and my family. While my
family is currently in Vegas (my younger brother was selected for a
national 7's team so they went to support him), I still have an older
brother in college, rugby injuries that might require medical
attention, a broken passenger side window, brakes and cabin filters
needing replacing, an overdue oil change and an inspection to do so I
can renew my vehicle registration- then there's of course the pending
overdue registration ticket I need to pay. I also need to get myself
a haircut for upcoming career fairs and somehow still afford
groceries that hardly last me the week even when I devote all of the
money toward cheap meals. Lastly, if I can't find it online, I have
to get one last textbook for an engineering class that is absolutely
required for me to succeed.
Many mornings I wake up on edge. I
watch everything I eat because- I have to make things last, or make
sacrifices. Sometimes, on particularly rigorous weeks, my money isn't
enough and I have to bank on my own invested generosities coming back
around to me by way of free meals or relinquished leftovers. Why I
continue to workout and go to practice knowing I don't have enough
fuel to be able to do so in a healthy way is beyond me. But I don't
have a schedule that will allow me to work as infrequently as my
schedule would demand and dipping into my time during the mornings
kills my homework productivity. I know this is just one big wall of
complaints but it's truly stressful.
It's interesting that something so
simple, made of some fabric-paper blend and colored so plainly, can
make such a big difference. Sometimes even when you're not poor
you're still broke.
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