Okay so I heard once in a Netflix comedy special that God, if we are to be built in his image, most definitely has a sense of humor-- and man if only he knew how profound that was for me. Every other chapter of my life is yet another example of God writing a joke with my actions and the world around as it reacts to them. I wish more people considered this before this disembody Him and turn God into this stoic, lifeless statue that glares and swings rulers at passersby.
He's done many pranks and made many jokes with me, and today just so happened to be the perfect time for yet another. For multiple reasons the day was already stressful enough as it was (personal stuff), but they found their resolutions quickly-- in the real world. In my brain-world, things were still just as fresh and unaccounted for as before, I just didn't think about them as much. But then tonight, one odd lapse in conversation in all of a sudden I am literally pounding at the chest thinking I'd triggered a certain dear homie of mine to fall back into bad habits or worse (I knew they were out and about that night). Next thing I know, brain twisting and contorting every bit of sensory input as confirmation that my homie was either A)Dead or B)About to be, I am out the door running all around town and breathing steam out my ear holes awaiting a reply. I spent an hour total (yes, an actual measured hour) panicking over literally nothing, but in the midst of that panic I started praying and worshiping and praising and thanking God. To top it off, I told God to make himself known to me.
Minutes pass and out of nowhere the winds pick up (I love windy nights), the air cools, and I feel this foreign energy just surge through me yet my heart felt a calm. I wasn't hyped up, I was just overjoyed. Before I knew it, I couldn't contain my singing along to the songs and my eyes glued to the stars twinkling above like friends giggling at a joke I was clearly not quite in on yet. So in my mind, this is God having made himself known to me... Fast forward, I'm about to hop into my shower and sleep on things when I receive the most plain jane, completely casual response to my obvious panicking. I step into the shower and all at once I remember something and feel like a total idiot.
You see, the other week I had prayed and asked for God to really bring me back to him because I felt like my relationship with him wasn't lacking, but wasn't quite where I wanted it to be in comparison to where it was during the school year. And here I was, standing in the shower, realizing that all of this was God doing just that (and all he had to do was have me miss one call on an odd Monday night). Dude's timing is unreal. To boot, I even turn around (as I'm laughing) and pick up the only body wash available in the shower. Want to guess what the shampoo "flavor" was called?
"Relax"
So as of now, my girlfriend is not too pleased with me, between my God and I, I feel quite dumb but also so content, my family probably thinks I'm crazy because I busted out laughing in the shower, and I'm laying in bed laughing as I write this because I just have to make note of these things... But I think everything will be just fine.
God, you're a funny man.
He's done many pranks and made many jokes with me, and today just so happened to be the perfect time for yet another. For multiple reasons the day was already stressful enough as it was (personal stuff), but they found their resolutions quickly-- in the real world. In my brain-world, things were still just as fresh and unaccounted for as before, I just didn't think about them as much. But then tonight, one odd lapse in conversation in all of a sudden I am literally pounding at the chest thinking I'd triggered a certain dear homie of mine to fall back into bad habits or worse (I knew they were out and about that night). Next thing I know, brain twisting and contorting every bit of sensory input as confirmation that my homie was either A)Dead or B)About to be, I am out the door running all around town and breathing steam out my ear holes awaiting a reply. I spent an hour total (yes, an actual measured hour) panicking over literally nothing, but in the midst of that panic I started praying and worshiping and praising and thanking God. To top it off, I told God to make himself known to me.
Minutes pass and out of nowhere the winds pick up (I love windy nights), the air cools, and I feel this foreign energy just surge through me yet my heart felt a calm. I wasn't hyped up, I was just overjoyed. Before I knew it, I couldn't contain my singing along to the songs and my eyes glued to the stars twinkling above like friends giggling at a joke I was clearly not quite in on yet. So in my mind, this is God having made himself known to me... Fast forward, I'm about to hop into my shower and sleep on things when I receive the most plain jane, completely casual response to my obvious panicking. I step into the shower and all at once I remember something and feel like a total idiot.
You see, the other week I had prayed and asked for God to really bring me back to him because I felt like my relationship with him wasn't lacking, but wasn't quite where I wanted it to be in comparison to where it was during the school year. And here I was, standing in the shower, realizing that all of this was God doing just that (and all he had to do was have me miss one call on an odd Monday night). Dude's timing is unreal. To boot, I even turn around (as I'm laughing) and pick up the only body wash available in the shower. Want to guess what the shampoo "flavor" was called?
"Relax"
So as of now, my girlfriend is not too pleased with me, between my God and I, I feel quite dumb but also so content, my family probably thinks I'm crazy because I busted out laughing in the shower, and I'm laying in bed laughing as I write this because I just have to make note of these things... But I think everything will be just fine.
God, you're a funny man.
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