Speech Sucks

           So the other day, in my P.O.S. speech class, I delivered a nice little speech that summarized my life. And I mean, really summarized my life. The wretched thing was five minutes long, and that was only because I couldn't quite chop it up enough to just simply meet the minute and a half requirement. Which by the way is a total joke... but that's another matter. Anyway, as I'm wrapping up my speech, cringing with each detail I let "talk to the hand", I realized this. A, that I am indeed "funny", whatever that means. B, that I seem to remember much more than I thought. And C, that I am a much better speaker than I ever thought. Something I should really have noticed in the 17 years leading up to that day. Not because I (thought or ) "think before I speak" like all those dumb teacher posters say. I just spoke.
           I can text people long thought out messages, or write intricate and usually overdone essays, but what I find the most strength in, is simply speaking. Face to face. Person to person. I really don't know why, I wouldn't necessarily consider myself charismatic, or any sort of oratory prodigy, but it seems to work for me. For example. When my friends are in need, or anyone for that matter, it is consistently seen that there are always opportunities for me to, in some way shape or form to write them, and speak to them. And yeah, the texts sent back and forth in the wee hours of night are temporarily effective, but never inherently meaningful. While, on the other hand, the actual speaking between myself and the individual yields much more lasting effects. Maybe it's just because I am proficient in reading people. Or things are more obvious? But more than anything I think it is because I don't have time to think. With less time to think, I can't sit there and formulate an approach. Or any specific pattern of words. I just have to respond and act. Let the stream of consciousness raw without the mind's filter take things where they will. And the same goes for the other(s) present in conversation. Which must be why I can express myself so clearly. Which is a trait people have, or look to attain... So, who then really "thinks before they speak"...? And why?